It has been a while since I have meditated. I always find the excuse that I’m “too busy” to do it. When I don’t meditate I feel that I revert to old, selfish behaviors. I forget that goodness is innate and to stay in unity with myself is a lifestyle for not only the betterment of my own life, but for the human race. Often I feel that I meditate and read Buddhist teachings to increase my “spiritual status”. As if the thought that doing so is just another way of bettering myself like working out or doing my hair. I must remember that if I want to truly be free and one with myself, that I have to lose that mindset. I forget that I am not “finding” myself or even “changing” myself. I am simply ridding of the ego to be in tune with myself. The “self” that IS innate, that IS infinite and bodiless. The self that is always there even when I make mistakes or when my selfish behaviors arise. We have to remember this. We are ALL good. We are not our emotions, mistakes, or thoughts. We are so much more than that. I hope all is well.